Category Archives: Corporate

MY WISH

My Wish  What do you have to be sorry for, What is so sad about your life, Why are you in pain? Don’t bug me with your problems, I’m tired of your clouded rain.   I don’t want to see … Continue reading

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It’s Been A Long Time (I.E. Happiness ~ Survival > Existing)

 The title is kind of making fun of some of my former posts. I am currently in remission from Major Depression (Thank God). Of the things real/possible/suggested/hypothesed/etc. this condition is the one I know I am most in danger … Continue reading

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Suffering versus Living

The Myers Briggs Test; A fun little look into our psyche that companies will often give once we begin a work relationship with them. The company I work with gave me my first test when I was 23. My first … Continue reading

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I Used To Be A Runner…

Not a great one, not even a good one, but I was a loyal runner. Running made me feel good. It made me ‘okay’. On days when I was angry, run down, the worst of my depressive and suicidal moods … Continue reading

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My Secret Fear…

Scared…  Terrified….  I am almost crippled and sweaty; fearful of something other people do without hesitation. I would prefer to face a tiger or a snake. What is it???  Talking on the phone. Why?? I don’t know. I have no … Continue reading

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I worry…Is there a coming back from this?

I worry…  …that I will lose my mind …that I will lose my soul That my will to function will be lost.   I’m concerned…  …about my children …my grandchildren Will they be sick, too?   I wonder… …now that … Continue reading

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How I have stayed alive since I tried to end my life

*A blog reader asked to have my email address so she/he could ask me a question. It was a very important one and I felt it a good idea to post both question and answer here. It helped me see … Continue reading

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