Category Archives: guilt

Day That Remains Unnamed

I remember being cold and that it was dark but not so dark that I couldn’t see what was happening. There was a light, that’s right… one light was on. I was crying without making a sound. I can’t recall … Continue reading

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That Which Brings Me Comfort

As I have learned, there are many different kinds of mental illness and of those, differing severities. I have read and soaked up all I can about the ones that torment me, because learning and understanding brings me comfort. It … Continue reading

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Letter to Brian: May 30, 2014

*A friend recently wrote a blog about the comments my CNN writing brought about. Some were terrible, but most were lovely. This is my response to her. I HIGHLY recommend her blog, by the way.* Laura, I love this post. … Continue reading

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what it is to feel suicidal

I have been asked what it is like to feel suicidal. This is difficult to put into the written word. Until the moment that I was trying to die, I wouldn’t have said I was suicidal. I can better explain … Continue reading

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How I have stayed alive since I tried to end my life

*A blog reader asked to have my email address so she/he could ask me a question. It was a very important one and I felt it a good idea to post both question and answer here. It helped me see … Continue reading

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…and the bride wore black

I got married two weeks ago. Something I never thought I would live to see. I married my dream guy; someone who knows the worst things about me and loves me anyway. I promised him he would have me just … Continue reading

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30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Challenge- Day 28

Day 28: Explain a “bad” day. Not unlike yesterday, since I have previously compared the differences of a day I feel well/sick, I will instead write today about a day in which I felt really bad. This was not THE … Continue reading

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