Category Archives: guilt

Day That Remains Unnamed

I remember being cold and that it was dark but not so dark that I couldn’t see what was happening. There was a light, that’s right… one light was on. I was crying without making a sound. I can’t recall … Continue reading

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Hold It All Together…No More

Single Mom Work Too Hard Pulled In Many Directions …once was but am no more Hold It All Together A precious balance so delicate Runner of Miles To Keep Me Sane …once was but am no more Know where my … Continue reading

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That Which Brings Me Comfort

As I have learned, there are many different kinds of mental illness and of those, differing severities. I have read and soaked up all I can about the ones that torment me, because learning and understanding brings me comfort. It … Continue reading

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An entitled and self-indulgent blog about self-hatred

My mother used to say to me, every time she was about to punish me for something as a teen (a less than stellar grade, or the time I got a speeding ticket for going 45 in a 35 in … Continue reading

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Letter to Brian: May 30, 2014

*A friend recently wrote a blog about the comments my CNN writing brought about. Some were terrible, but most were lovely. This is my response to her. I HIGHLY recommend her blog, by the way.* Laura, I love this post. … Continue reading

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My Secret Fear…

Scared…  Terrified….  I am almost crippled and sweaty; fearful of something other people do without hesitation. I would prefer to face a tiger or a snake. What is it???  Talking on the phone. Why?? I don’t know. I have no … Continue reading

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what it is to feel suicidal

I have been asked what it is like to feel suicidal. This is difficult to put into the written word. Until the moment that I was trying to die, I wouldn’t have said I was suicidal. I can better explain … Continue reading

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