Category Archives: PTSD

MY WISH

My Wish  What do you have to be sorry for, What is so sad about your life, Why are you in pain? Don’t bug me with your problems, I’m tired of your clouded rain.   I don’t want to see … Continue reading

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It’s Been A Long Time (I.E. Happiness ~ Survival > Existing)

 The title is kind of making fun of some of my former posts. I am currently in remission from Major Depression (Thank God). Of the things real/possible/suggested/hypothesed/etc. this condition is the one I know I am most in danger … Continue reading

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I Used To Be A Runner…

Not a great one, not even a good one, but I was a loyal runner. Running made me feel good. It made me ‘okay’. On days when I was angry, run down, the worst of my depressive and suicidal moods … Continue reading

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what it is to feel suicidal

I have been asked what it is like to feel suicidal. This is difficult to put into the written word. Until the moment that I was trying to die, I wouldn’t have said I was suicidal. I can better explain … Continue reading

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How I have stayed alive since I tried to end my life

*A blog reader asked to have my email address so she/he could ask me a question. It was a very important one and I felt it a good idea to post both question and answer here. It helped me see … Continue reading

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I wish I could explain what I felt that day…a 17 year old’s story of her mother’s suicide attempt

(My daughter was asked to write a true account of an incident or something she is living with others don’t know about as an assignment for theater. It was to be written in first person, monologue style. This is what … Continue reading

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…and the bride wore black

I got married two weeks ago. Something I never thought I would live to see. I married my dream guy; someone who knows the worst things about me and loves me anyway. I promised him he would have me just … Continue reading

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