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MY WISH

My Wish  What do you have to be sorry for, What is so sad about your life, Why are you in pain? Don’t bug me with your problems, I’m tired of your clouded rain.   I don’t want to see … Continue reading

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I Used To Be A Runner…

Not a great one, not even a good one, but I was a loyal runner. Running made me feel good. It made me ‘okay’. On days when I was angry, run down, the worst of my depressive and suicidal moods … Continue reading

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The Best and Worst Part of Being in a Mental Hospital: Visitation

I am a 38 year old mother, wife, daughter, college graduate, executive, volunteer, member of the church choir, respected community member and I am mentally ill. Not only that; I have suicide ideation. I attempted in November 2012 and was … Continue reading

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what it is to feel suicidal

I have been asked what it is like to feel suicidal. This is difficult to put into the written word. Until the moment that I was trying to die, I wouldn’t have said I was suicidal. I can better explain … Continue reading

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The Sick, Twisted Balance in my Inefficiencies

Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I first heard this term ascribed to my person in December 2012. After my suicide attempt, Major Depressive Disorder I expected; but what exactly was anxiety? Intense worry, right? I didn’t feel I was a worrier. I … Continue reading

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Diary of a Mad Angry Woman

Dear Diary, I have HAD it!! Please allow me to explain; You see…I have spent the greater part of the last three months in a huge funk. Or to put it more accurately, I’ve been in another one of my … Continue reading

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‘Coming Out’ as Mentally Ill in the Corporate World

It’s been almost 15 months since I decided my life had to end. There had been many times when I felt I might want to end it eventually, but on Nov. 30, I had the sudden realization that every breath … Continue reading

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